im going private

So now that im posting pictures of little lyla im going to be going private soon! so give me your email address. Oh and scroll down i have a new post to tide you over. So hurry and give me your email cause i wont be posting pics of lyla till im private!!!!!!

Troy is 27!!!!!

I faked him out by getting him a toy gun, but then in the card was the money to buy a real one

I forgot to do a post about Troy. He turned 27 on sept. 30th, he seems so old to me :). We didnt do much for his b day because he has school and got home at almost 6 so i made him a yummy dinner, homeade pesto with fettucini and bruchetta. And for his b day present i got him a gun. Yes i know a little scary but he really wanted one and also we wanted it for protection and before stupid obama wont let you buy guys anymore we wanted to get one before that happened.

Here are 27 reasons why i love my hubby soooo much

1. He is the greatest dad to Lyla and helps me with her soooo much

2. He treats me so sweetly and is willing to do anything for me

3. He always helps me clean the house, he even does the dishes without me asking:)

4. tickles, rubs my feet, and plays with my hair all the time

5. He knows so much about the gospel i can ask him anything, i really look up to him

6. He has such a strong testimony

7. He's soooo good looking!

8. He makes me laugh all the time even if hes not even trying

9. He's the best to go shopping with, he pickes out the cutest clothes

10. He is such a hard worker in EVERYTHING

11. He is so smart

12. He loves to cuddle with me

13. He lets me watch my tv shows (i think he likes watching them too)

14. He has such a tender heart

15. He loves playing sports but doesnt like watching them!

16. Has such motivation to support his family

17. We are truly the same person, we think exactly alike

18. He may be shy to some people but is sooo outgoing with me, he is just as weird and crazy as i am

19. He dresses and smells so good

20. He has the most kissable lips and beautiful blue eyes

21. I love him being so tall, it makes me feel small even wearing high heels

22. I feel safe around him

23. Hes such a perfectionist

24. He is so very patient with me, and lets me vent to him

25. Which makes him such a great listener

26. He loves making me happy

27. I love him because he truly is the best husband and dad i can ever ask for. I am so thankful for our realtionship, he makes me soooo happy and is my best friend, I love you Troy!

lots of pics

My body ISNT back to normal yet, but at least my ankles are!

this is her at i think 2 weeks

i painted her toe nails but it was so hard to take a pic of them she kept wiggling her toes and feet

she sometimes sleeps with her mouth open

she has shoes on! (3.5 weeks)

this is how she likes to sleep

this picture of her makes me laugh so hard everytime

me and troy went to a reception, first time troys mom babysat her

she loves her little wrap

she likes bath time (4 weeks)

tummy time

how cute!

she totally posed all by herself! 2 days from being 5 weeks

Little Lyla

I truly feel so so blessed to have little Lyla in my life, she is the sweetest baby ever and of course i think the cutest too. Even though i miss my sleep she is so worth it. I really just feel overwhelmed with gratitude for her and also for Troy who has been so helpful and will do anything for me and for Lyla, he really has been the best husband and dad! He still will get up with me during the night to help me or sometimes when im up with her and shes crying hard and he hears it he'll just come out and ask me if i need any help, even though he has to get up early for school the next morning. I do have to mention for instance last night a very small part of the pump broke and i woke him up to ask him what i should do (i have to pump every 2 hours) anyway being the best guy ever he was on the ground searching for that part which was seriously the size of a sliver and he found it and spent forever trying to glue it back together and he ended up going to bed at 2am. Ok i know im gushing over troy, so back to Lyla, im going to write some things about her so that i'll always remember.


She LOVES to get her diaper changed

she loves her carseat and riding in the car

she has very strong neck muscles ever since she was like a week old, when shes laying on your chest and she gets sick of laying her head on one side she will turn it over to the other side

she hardly cries, she really only cries when its necessary (most of the time)

she has a cute cry

ever since she was born when her eyes are open she opens them so big, she is so very alert

she smiles alot but on aug. 20th was when it was an actual happy smile and she was looking right at me, so cute!

she is very long

she doesnt like nursing :( she was in the beginning but once i had to give her a bottle she likes that better cause it comes out faster so i've been pumping 2-3 hours day and night just so she'll have the good milk

she doesnt like to be swaddled when she sleeps she likes to be sprawled out with her arms up over her head

she sleeps her life away

during the night i get between 2-4 hour stretch

she has never cried for more than a few min, she is easily comforted

she likes her binky

she likes getting a bath but not so much when i wash her hair

she loves sleeping on her dads chest

she scares us when she poops it seriously shoots out

Lyla is just a joy in our lives and is the cutest thing ever! we just love her and im so sad that she is growing so fast! I am just so lucky she was sent to us. And i just love that troy loves her so much and he wasnt sure if he would like the newborn stage as much but i just loves her and wants to hold her all the time and doesnt mind changing her diaper, she has him wrapped around her finger thats for sure. We just love her!

My birthing story

Ok so here it goes, on aug. 19th (wed) I was scheduled to be induced at 3pm. The day before, Tuesday, a nurse called and said there was an opening on Wednesday to do an induction. Of course I said yes to it but man I was soo scared because this came out of no where. They decided to do an induction because of my high blood pressure and they were thinking the baby was going to be 8.5 pounds and also troy was starting school monday. So Wednesday we were all packed up and went to the hospital and arrived on time. We went to check in and the lady said "oh we don't have any rooms for you, today has been so busy with people going into labor, we will call you when there is a room". She also said they were supposed to have called us that morning to infom us not to come in but no one did. I was sooooo mad, and what a dissapointment, i was mentally prepared and everything. So we drove home and I decided to take a nap. But before I did I wanted Troy to call and just see if maybe they knew of an estimated time of when they would call us to come back in. When Troy called the lady said "oh we acutally were going to call you to come back, we have a room for you." How annoying!! We seriously were home for 5 min and then we had to go back. This time driving to the hospital I was way more nervous and scared. So we got there but we had to wait again! They had called other people to come back in for inductions as well and even though we were the first ones there they called those other people to come back and check in before us! So again they told us that they didn't have any rooms for us! Oh my gosh I was sooooo bugged! Finally after waiting over an hour we got to check in but as we were checking in a girl came in who was in labor so they gave her our room. Are you kidding me!? So then we had to wait some more. Finally they took me back and they had to put me into a triage room, which is like a whole in the wall, and I stayed there for 4 hours. They started me up on my IV, which by the way freakin hurt! and then they had to give me some medicine to soften my cervix. They started me on this medicine at 7pm and I had to have it in me for 12 hours. Me and troy were so bored in that room we played hangman on a dry erase board, which was very entertaining, we were laughing so hard and having our own fun. At about 11pm they gave me some Ambien to help me sleep through the night. Well that didn't work out so well because I still couldn't fall asleep because of all the annoying sounds of the machines and getting my blood pressure taken every 30min! So then I started to hallucinate because of the Ambien and when I would look at Troy his face would be all distorted and I would just stare at him and I got all freaked out. He had to make me close my eyes to go to sleep, it was pretty funny.

At 7am the next morning they took out the medicine to soften my cervix and checked me. I was dialated to a 1 and 70% efaced. At 8am they started me on pitocin. At 9:30 my dr. came in to check me and I wasn't progressing and he really wanted me to have this baby that day so he decided to break my water. I totally freaked out because there was no warning. He did it and it hurt! So about an hour after that I started to feel some cramping and then I began to really feel the contractions. They hurt pretty bad and I had to really breathe through them. My nurse, who was awesome, said that I could have my epidural at any time. So I asked her to check my progression and I was only at a 2! I didn't want the pain to get worse but yet I wasn't sure if it was totally lame to get the epidural so early. She said it doesn't matter and I should just do it because it wouldn't slow me down or anything. So I thought why not? So basically I was in labor for an hour :) But the bad part.... getting my epidural was the worst most painful part of my life. Getting the first shot to numb my back was awful but then when she was doing the big needle she kept hitting my right nerve in my back which was soooo painful and she ended up poking me like 5 times! It seriously was so painful and traumatizing for me, I just cried and cried. But I do have to say that after it was done it was sooo worth it. Troy had boughten me a ring for "pushing out the baby" and he gave it to me after my epidural because he wanted to cheer me up. I'll have to post a pic of the ring, I just love it, it's beautiful.

Anyway I was able to rest and have the lights out to try and sleep. The nurse came in at about 2:30pm to check me and i was at a tight 4. So I dosed off again (Troy was so bored, I felt so bad for him). Then at almost 5pm I started to feel like I needed to poop (which means the baby's head was right there). For some reason I didnt tell the nurse right away because i had felt it for a while. Anyway she came in to check me and she said "wow you are ready to push right now!!" Crazy!! I got nervous and I didnt know what to expect! They hurried and got everthing ready and Troy was holding one leg and my mom the other. I pushed about 5 times and got her out in 15 min.!! It was sooooo fast, they said that once her head came out her body just flew out! Everyone was just amazed at how fast she came. I did tear a little though, but guess what, I didnt poop! haha that was my fear. Im sure you all wanted to know that too. Troy, throughout the whole process, was just soooo amazing, he helped me out so much and he was such a good coach through it all too, giving me words of encouragement. My Mom was also such a great support for me too! Lyla weighed 7 pounds 14 oz and was 20.5 in. She came out with such a sweet cry. It was so crazy, I honestly didnt know how to feel after everything, I think I was just so exhausted.
So after everything I've been healing really well, and i just love her so much. She really is such a good baby, she only cries if she needs something, she never just cries just because. She sleeps pretty well and when she's awake she just stares all around. She really is a good baby and we just love her to pieces! I have to admit though it still has been so very tough especially for the first 5 days. I literally didnt sleep because I was so worried about her. I would just stare at her all night until about 5 or 6 am until my body couldnt handle it anymore. It was pretty bad. Thankfully my mom stayed with us and helped out soooooooo much. She cooked us a great meal every night, she did laundry, cleaned the house and would watch the baby when I needed to take a nap. She was just so wonderful and I was sooooo sad to see her leave. I still really miss her and her help. Things by myslef have been hard. I definitly have had the baby blues, my hormones have been crazy and I would cry almost every night (its getting better) And troy has been here for me throughout it all. He truly has been so so helpful. He helps whenever I ask him and he even gets up at night with me and he feeds her a bottle while I pump, just so I'm not up for so long. Troy is such a great dad and he just loves to hold her and take care of her. He even doesnt mind changing her nasty poops. I really couldnt be more thankful for him and all he has done for me at this time! before i went to the hospital

in the triage room hanging out and before they put tons of fluid in my face!

this was right before i was going to push

right after she came, look how happy troy is. And look at that double chin!

first time meeting her

me and my mom

i love this pic, she was so awake and alert from the moment she came out

look at the chub face

getting ready to go home

her first little outfit we put her in when we got home

she is so tiny! after the hospital she lost 14oz so we had to give her formula

her first bath, she didnt even cry. She is so good she never cries when we change her diaper either i love it.

look at that cute face!

so sweet!

IM SCARED

So today i called the dr. to get my results from my pee test. The nurse told me that i had some protein in my urine. I also asked her if she could let the dr. know that troy is starting school on monday and maybe he can check the hospital if they have openings to get induced on the weekend. Anyway i get a phone call a few hours later and it was the nurse saying that she talked to the dr. and he said i can get induced tomorrow at 3pm! what in the world??? i asked her tons of questions of course and basically he went over my charts and feels like it would be best. The baby is getting big, i had protein in my urine and my blood pressure is still kinda high. So im getting induced tomorrow and sad thing to say im not excited at all. I feel bad feeling that way i just am scared and the anticipation is the worst. I wish my water would just break and i wouldnt have time to think about it. So there ya go next time i write in my blog i'll have a little baby! wish me luck and hopefully i'll be able to say i had her naturally and that shes like 7 pounds instead of 10 :)

4 year anniversary!!!!

Aug. 6th we celebrated our 4 year anniversary! It was my year to plan something so i surprised him by going to Ruth's Chris. We both have never been there but i have heard alot of great things about this place. Let me tell you it was worth every penny! Although i didnt expect it to be that much geez. I have to admit i was a little concerned because i didnt see any A1 sauce and i love dipping my steak in that, Troy assured me I wouldnt need that stuff and boy was he right. We really enjoyed being together that night. These past 4 years have seriously been the best ever! (beware i might get mushy) And i can honestly say every year gets better and better and i fall more and more in love with him. I think to myself all the time that it really cant be this good something bad is going to happen one of these days ( i know im lame for thinking that) but its true and dont know how i got so lucky to spend eternity with the best guy ever and for having the best realationship anyone could ask for. I truly am so blessed to have my lover and best friend all in one! I cant wait to see him be a dad soon, it will be so much fun to raise a family with Troy. Cant wait for many many more anniversary's! I love you Troy!
Me looking so lovely with my swollen face! but at least Troy looks hot!

update on the belly and feet....

so heres an update on my lovely feet, trust me they look way bigger in person. you dont get to see how thick they are in pics. And the belly pics are of me at 38 weeks. Im now 39 and 1 day. I went to my dr. appt today hoping he would say lets induce you tomorrow. He told me since the baby is big he doesnt want me going to my due date which in 6 days. So thats why i was thinking he would induce me. Well he checked me again today and im NOTHING, he says im still sooo tight so now he tells me come back on thursday and we'll see how things are and we will induce you either this weekend or early next week! what in the world i thought he didnt want me going past my due date. I told him i was so scared of her being 20 pounds, but he told me that giving my body a few more days will help so much more and she wont gain too much more within those few days. And of course we want to do all that we can so that i dont have to have a c section. Oh but i do have some good news.... from my last appt which was 5 days ago i lost 3 pounds YES! and whats funny is i woke up this morning and my ankles were looking a little skinnier so thats where those 3 pounds went.

Things to remember about my pregnancy

I havent written in my journal at all about my pregnancy and this is so much easier to just type it out.

had my miscarraige on oct. 30th and didnt have a period in between and found out i was pregnant again dec. 10th 2008.

had my first ultra sound by my sister joy telling me i was not even 6 weeks yet (i thought i was further along)

went to my real dr. appt at 8 weeks and saw our little gummy bear (thats what she looked like)

I started throwing up at 5.5 weeks and it lasted i think until about 14 or 15 weeks. I would be ok in the morning but throw up sometimes during lunch and ALWAYS my dinner, i felt sick always at night.

I still throw up occasionally because i'll eat too much and make myself sick

I had only gained 12 pounds when i was almost 6 months (thought cool i'll only gain like 25 30 pounds)

so far i've gained 41 pounds!

In 2 months i had gained 15 pounds, then for 2 weeks (while we were moving) i didnt gain anything, then a week after that i gained 5 more pounds (the dr. looked at my feet and said i think its just all water weight) then a week after that 3 more pounds! when will it end

My feet started getting swollen in the middle of June and they've just gotten worse by the day, they are freakin huge. And 2 weeks ago is when i started to get swollen in my hands, eyelids, and face, mostly chin :(

the first time i felt the baby move was at 16 weeks

Troy felt the baby move i think when i was either 20 or 22 weeks cant remember

Troy is so cute, all during my pregnancy he has been making sure i eat, he thinks if i havent eatin for a while the baby is starving so he goes in the kitchen and makes me something. He always makes sure i eat my breakfast too.

Troy loves it when he feels the baby, he says when he feels her he feels he has a connection with her

When troy is tired he says he doesnt want to have a baby right now, when hes well rested he gets really excited

I got super big super fast! so basically i've been uncomfortable for a long time. And for a while her head was really far down that my crotch would hurt all the time!

surprisingly my back from my back surgery hasnt hurt me all that much its been great!

we both wanted to have a girl first and thought she was and was soooo excited when we found out. Troy really wanted a girl! i think thats so cute

I didnt have any stretch marks on my belly until about 7 months got a little tiny one and the next week had full blown lovely stretchmarks, i've only cried about them like 2 or 3 times.

Troy has been the best rubbing my feet up to 3 times a day! hes so good to me

It seems to me that she has been pretty calm in my stomache, she has only kicked me where it scared me just a couple times but other than that shes pretty gentle and lately i've felt her move the most now than anytime during my pregnancy. I feel her foot on my right side sticking out all the time.

she gets the hiccups like twice a day and some may think its cute but man it annoys the heck out of me, especially when im trying to sleep! thats when she likes to do it most

well thats all i can think of. Pregnancy is been a wonderful thing, yes it can be very very uncomfortable, some days i think it hasnt been that bad and other days well i think the opposite. But i am so excited for her to come and see what shes going to look like! I feel very very blessed to have the opportunity to experience all of this

cant sleep!

I seriously cant sleep anymore, unless i take tylonal pm but i dont want to take that every single night! I think right now im more anxious than most nights. Today i went to my dr. appt and they checked my blood pressure and it was something like 150 something over 90 then as my dr. was checking me i didnt progress :( and then he tells me that hes estimating that the baby weighs 8.5 pounds! what in the world where did that come from me and troy both weren't big babies?? Then we ask him if he can strip my membrane, well let me tell you that freakin hurts and as hes grunting trying to get his whole arm up there and seriously pushing me off the table he stops because im still too small to do anything. Oh and when his hand came out it was all bloody (dont mind me telling the details). I take a blood test and pee in a cup and im just waiting for my results to tell me if i have preclampsia so i think thats why i cant sleep! The dr. did tell me too that i for sure wont be going to my due date that he will be checking when there is an opening to get me induced. Im so sad about not going on my own cause i know there is a higher rate of having a c-section if you do that. So im a little stressed and sad and hopeful that my baby ISNT 8.5 pounds!

MOVED IN

So finally after a couple of weeks of preparation we are moved into our house that we are renting. Can i just tell you that im surprised i didnt put myself into labor. This hot hot heat, packing, and going up and down the stairs carrying boxes. This move seemed soooo long and hated every second of it! But alas we are here and now just have to unpack which is a huge chore too! So Lyla is going to be here in 3.5 weeks and i feel like i have nothing done for her, i want her to come early but then again am i even ready??! Troy has been so busy helping with the move, working and also filling out his 2nd applications for medical school. Things are just so busy right now and all i want to do is just sit! Oh and let me just tell you my feet are HUGE if you see the pic below well double maybe triple that in size and thats what my feet look like right now. Even my hands and face are a little swollen its so ugly! My feet just kill soooo bad and Troy rubs them for me like 3 times a day, hes so nice. I cant even stretch my feet cause it pulls the skin so bad, they are so tight! Well im done complaining but thats whats going on right now, when we're moved in i'll take some pics of the house.

4th of july

For the 4th of July my family went to our cabin in prescott, it was alot of fun and nice weather. I hadnt spent a 4th of july with my family in years so it was nice to be able to do that. here is a pic of me and troy watching the fire works. My dad and Troy. Im lame and hardly took any pictures. All in all it was a great time and place to spend with family, except for the fact that for some reason i was sooooo swollen while i was there.

Heres a random pic of me and Troy and my cousin cara's baby shower

a while ago Troy took me to fountain hills

keep scrolling down i have a ton of new posts

FINALLY PREGO PICS

here are my poor poor feet that hurt sooo bad, especially with this heat, all the moving and packing and standing alot doing hair. My feet usually are bigger too so sad. So here are my prego pics and i got huge so fast, so therefore i've been so uncomfortable for so long and i still have 4.5 weeks left how much bigger can i get. My last appt i so far have gained 33 lbs and she measured average but her weight was just a tad on the bigger side! 35 weeks

32 weeks

29 weeks

25 weeks